This weeks challenge is about womanhood. That was a hard one for me. Never felt like a real woman all my life. When I was young I even wanted to be a boy. I actually looked like a boy and I didn't care about that until I was about 15.
Growing up, going to university, work, marriage, kids. I still wasn't really thinking about being a woman, or life in general. Until that black day 3 years ago in October. I woke up and thought my life was over. I thought I was dying, having a heart attack and it was time to say goodbye. It turned out my heart was fine, but for the next months I hardly could get out of my bed, walk, talk, breath. I was burned out, had chronical hyperventilation and even panic attacks. It took me two years to get back on my feet again and to look back. I found out I lived the life I was supposed to live, as many women do.
I took care of everyone and everything and that I had just done to much before something snapped.....now I'm back. I realised that I'm a person, a woman, someone who should take better care of herself! I started to start with atletics, something I loved doing when I was younger, became a coach too, bought myself a dog to take long walks to enjoy the outdoors, and cut back the work (and the money and found out that I dind't even care!). And as my health improved I got the ultimate present to celebrate womanhood. I got pregnant of my third child!
The layout that I made shows me with my dog in the period I was still ver tired. Should print this blogpost on it as a journal. But somehow it is still to painful to journal it.....